Well……you knew it had to happen…..eventually. Saturday am as I typed my last blog entry, I was feeling really good. I was a little snotty – but that was okay. Fast forward to around 3pm on Saturday and I truly felt like I had been hit by a truck. I could hardly hold my eyes open. I took some tylenol and went to bed around 3:30 and slept for a few hours. Woke up still feeling not so great – and Hunter and I laid in my bed watching a Hallmark movie (yeah – he hates ’em, and loves to go ahead and tell me after the first 5 minutes just how it’s gonna end – MEN – they just don’t get it!).
Being the great helper that he is……he volunteered to help me get supper ready. He truly is handy in the kitchen! I felt a little better after dinner and we started working on a puzzle. If you hafta feel like crap and be stuck at home – you may as well make the most of it, right?
I didn’t sleep well Saturday night and was sniffling and sneezing most of the night. We talked the night before and everyone seemed to feel like it would be in my best interest if I DIDN’T go to church on Sunday if I was still feeling yucky. I surely didn’t need to risk making things worse or picking up any germs. Well – given that I didn’t wake up Sunday til around 9:30 – it’s safe to say I didn’t make it to church. I laid around the house all day Sunday trying to shake whatever was trying to jump on me.
My biggest fear is that I might catch ANYTHING that may prevent me from having my chemo on the assigned day. I’m a planner by nature – and if I put in my calendar – IT NEEDS TO HAPPEN ON THAT DAY!! Even though I have not been given an END DATE to my chemo treatments – I am MENTALLY checking them off my list. Right now we are at 2 down and 10 to go – with the next treatment being on Friday. It’s written on the calendar – so it needs to happen! Right now – according to MY CALENDAR 🙂 I should finish up this first regimen on Wednesday, August 30th. I don’t know how soon after that treatment that they will start me on the next regimen – which will be 8 treatments – once a week for 8 weeks. So it’s difficult to know right now just when my last treatment will fall – it all depends on when they start me on the Taxol. I’d guess it’s going to be mid to late November by the time I wrap this chemo up…..that is, if I don’t have any delays.
That being said……this will surely put me in the middle of cold/flu season…….and let’s not forget about the kids returning to school and sharing germs there……so when I start thinking of it in those terms – it makes me very concerned about staying healthy.
While it’s probably NOT a great idea to go to Walmart or places where there are ALOT of folks (translated TONS of germs) …….it’s difficult to think about staying at home ALL the time. While I’ve enjoyed being able to spend so much time this summer with Hunter while he’s been out of school – at least I’ve been able to go grocery shopping or run to Walmart when I needed to. After the past few days – I’m starting to wonder if I need to rethink that. Ugh – it’s such a conundrum!!! And to top it off – my favorite sport season is upon us…….Volleyball…….I really don’t want to miss those games! 😦
I plan to discuss this further with my doctor on Friday. There HAS to be a happy medium. I don’t want to feel like I’m in solitary confinement! 🙂 But I don’t want to delay my treatments either! This would probably be less of an issue if I were an introvert……however…..that’s NOT the case!
I have to keep reminding myself that this is just TEMPORARY…..and that this, too, shall pass.
Enjoy this beautiful day! It’s great for back porch sitting…..that’s exactly where I am right now!
Isaiah 41:10The Message (MSG)
8-10 “But you, Israel, are my servant.
You’re Jacob, my first choice,
descendants of my good friend Abraham.
I pulled you in from all over the world,
called you in from every dark corner of the earth,
Telling you, ‘You’re my servant, serving on my side.
I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you.’
Don’t panic. I’m with you.
There’s no need to fear for I’m your God.
I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you.
I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.