Most of you have seen the Swiffer commercial with Big Jerry – the dad who has a rambunctious son that doesn’t allow him much time to sit down and do any “deep couch sitting”! I like that term “deep couch sitting”! It always made me chuckle.
Well…..let me tell ya……the past two days, I have done some “deep couch sitting”. Tuesday night, I wrote out a list of 5-6 things I wanted to accomplish on Wednesday. Nothing major – send some emails, write some checks, a few menial tasks that surely I could cross off my list by lunch time the next day.
Yeah……not so much!
As soon as I got out of bed, my stomach was giving me a fit. Not the way you want to crawl out of bed already feeling yucky. I walked to the kitchen, made some coffee and plopped down on the couch. Hoping if I somehow “eased” my way into Wednesday, my tummy would come around. Three trips to the bathroom by 10:30am is not ideal when you didn’t get up until 8:00ish. Imodium is my new best friend……this week. I hope it’s a short lived friendship! Other than taking a shower – I spent ALL DAY Tuesday on the couch. I was doing some “deep couch sitting” and “deep couch lounging”! And you know what – I am COMPLETELY okay with that. ZERO of my items got checked off my “to do” list……so I simply rolled them over to Thursday! I’m learning to give myself some slack if I can’t do all the things I think I should be able to.
I continue to be amazed how you can feel great one minute and BAM – the next minute you feel like something has sucked every ounce of energy out of you. I’m trying to keep a record of how I feel each day. I want to see if there is a “pattern”. Like will chemo days 1-4 be normal and I will feel fine……and will days 5-9 be days with lots of nausea and diarrhea and will things get better after day 10. We’ll see. Maybe…..maybe not. It’s worth checking out anyway.
Today was better. I got those items checked off my list. Mom took me to town to pay some bills and run a few errands. It seems that 3-4 hours is about the maximum amount time I can be out and about before I crash and head to the comforts of my couch. “Listen to your body” is what everyone says. I’m really trying to do that. I rested most of the afternoon and felt good enough to have a “date night” and have dinner out with friends. It was a great time. Much needed time with friends – and lots of laughter…….which truly is good for the soul.
So you guys know that I knew NOTHING of blogging before starting this blog – and I really don’t know much more now about all the intricacies of blogging. I’ve been fooling around with the owner dashboard section a little bit trying to figure out all the intricacies of this blogging thing. Well, there is this neat STATS section where it shows you how many people have viewed your page each day, etc. And then there’s this map of the world and it highlights the places that my blog has been read. I was completely and utterly amazed to realize all the places that my blog had been read!!!
- United States
- United Kingdom
- Turks & Caicos Islands
- United Arab Emirates
What??? Seriously?? This whole internet and social media thing continues to amaze me!
So yesterday morning, I get a message from a former co-worker that I haven’t seen in years. She told me that her mom had been diagnosed with breast cancer shortly after me and she told me that her mom had been reading my blog and how it had been a blessing for them. Now…..my friend lives in NYC…..and her mom lives in Tennessee. I think that’s when it really hit me that folks outside of our little community were actually reading my blog! I never……ever imagined such would be the case! And ya’ll, I just have to tell you how God worked in my friends life. Her mom got diagnosed with cancer in Tennessee. My friend is in NYC. Three days later…..do you hear me…..THREE DAYS LATER…..my friend got laid off from her job in NYC with 6 months severance. Now – under normal circumstances, I know the layoff would have been devastating. But you see – this layoff allowed her to simply pack her bags and head home to Tennessee to be a caregiver for her mom! God truly works in mysterious ways! Her mom had her first treatment today….and she was able to be right by her side! 🙂 If that isn’t God smiling on ya, I don’t know what is!
I also get a text from another friend yesterday telling me that a 33 y/o coworker had been diagnosed with breast cancer and would be starting treatment soon. If that wasn’t bad enough – this young lady is 17 weeks pregnant. I. SIMPLY. CANNOT. IMAGINE. Suddenly…..my cancer chaos did not seem like such a big deal. My heart was so heavy for this young lady and what she must be going through physically, mentally and spiritually. I just wished I could squeeze her really really tight and tell her that she is stronger than she can possibly imagine and that she can do this…….and to never, ever, give up and that she is NOT alone!
Cancer does not discriminate. It doesn’t matter your age, your race, your socio-economic standing, your education, your political affiliation, your sex……it is no respecter of persons. Cancer Sucks……PERIOD!
I’m thankful for a day of “deep couch sitting”. However, I advised my husband that I’m pretty sure, when this is over – we may definitely need to invest in a new couch – Im pretty sure I’m wearing some permanent “holes” in this one!
Psalm 29:11 The Message (MSG)
11 God makes his people strong.
God gives his people peace.